Monday, 29 October 2007
I had to babysit the devil child for 5 hours last night. From 7:00pm to 12:00pm. I honestly had lost the will to live by the end. They were lucky they didn't come home to me smacking my head against the microwave untill there was a huge dent in the door.
I arived, on time, like the good little girl I am. The parents exact words were "He's been told he has to be good, or else." Or else what? They would lock him in a room untill he was 89?
So, I went into the living room and sat infront of the TV to watch waterloo road when devil child walked into the room. I asked him what he wanted (not in a "WHAT DO YOU WANT!?!" kind of way. More of a "Whats up?" kind of way.) He said he wanted to stay up for a bit longer but his parents had told me that he had to stay in bed because he had school the next day.
After I had explained that to him, I told him to go to bed. He laughed and sat on the sofa.
I told him to go to bed again, and he just said "yeah, whatever" and carryed on watching. I was a bit annoyed at this point so I told him if he didn't go to bed now, I would tell his parents.
Most normal kids who didn't have the devil as there father would jump up straight away at this threat and go to bed and not get up again. Mini-satan? Nope...
I was annoyed because I wanted to watch waterloo road and he kept on turning it to scooby-doo.
Half an hour later, I told him he really had to get to bed now. He said OK. (I almost fainted from the shock.)
I told him I would go up in 5 mins to check he was okay, so off he went.
5 mins later I went into his room and he wasn't in his room. He just wasn't there. 3 million visions came into my head of me trying to explain to his parents why I'd lost there son.
I looked everywhere. In the bathroom, bedroom, cupboards EVERYWHERE. I was close to screaming, or calling the police, or pulling my hair out. Then out came little devil boy, out of the flipping garden. He was laughing his head off like a little man witch.
I was really angry by now, so I ordered him upstairs in a sort of dictator sort of way. He went, but every time he'd been in bed for 5 mins, he would scream. I ran upstairs every time and he would be laughing. I couldn't ingore it! What if something had happened!
Babysitting sucks :(
Saturday, 27 October 2007
All my close friendships have come to an end after a few months. I've never had a boyfriend for longer than 2 months, its like I can't keep hold of anything good that happens to me.
All my friends have a "best friend". A person they can tell all there secrets to, and trust, and have a laugh with, and talk to the whole time. I don't have that.
Only one person has ever called me there "best friend". I don't like that person.
What I would like more than anything is to start again. Just be born again. I've done some bad things in my life, and I would do anything to take them back. I won't go into details.
As for the boyfriends thing. You may be thinking "ahh shes only young" Thats not the point. I like having a boyfriend because it means theres always someone to talk to, to share things with, all that stuff.
I think I have a comitment phobia.
Everything I get to close to someone, I push them away again. My last boyfriend and me were fine, untill he started texting me 24/7, calling me the whole time and wanting to see me non-stop. I freaked out and diched him.
I really liked him.
Now, I don't because hes a stupid player.
Back to the point, I just want to meet someone, ither a friend, or boyfriend who I really get on with. Who I can tell everthing to.
I wish I wasn't so damn shy :(
Friday, 26 October 2007
I have this "friend", I'm not gonna use a fake name becuase using her real one would be mean so I'm gonna call her "B".
B has been annoying me for a while now.
But today she has gone beyond the limit.
Tomorow shes having a get together at her house, all our friends are going, it should be fun.
Then this convosation happened.
R: So, tomorow, I have to bring my swimming costume and iPod, yes?
B: Yes, and 20p
R: What? Why do we have to bring 20p?
B: Because I told Will if he jumped into my swimming pool everyone at there would give him 20p
R: Well, I'm sorry, but I can't bring 20p
You may think I'm being a bit stingy, but recently I changed my I stopped getting an allowance and got a job. I don't want to borrow money anymore. All my moneys in my bank and I'm sorry, but I didn't agree to this so why should I pay.
B then started saying I could steal the money from my mum. I'm sorry, but I don't steal. Even if its just 20p.
Then she started on about I was "recking" the bet and everyone else was looking forward to it. I never agreed to give anyone 20p.
Pheww, now I feel better.
Monday, 22 October 2007
- dnt tlk lyk dis or LIke ThIs. Its annoying, hard to read, and you look stupid. Try to use correct punctuation and spellings.
- Blog frequently. Don't blog everyday for one month then ignore your visitors for a year. Blogging once a day, or once a week is best.
- People don't want to know everything about your life. So don't write stuff like this: "well, I got up from my purple duvet. Went down stairs, ate my breckfast. I was really nice. It was toast with jam and a glass of orange juice." The best thing to do is choose a specific thing in your day and write JUST about that, how you felt ect.
- Blog about movies and music, your readers can relate to that.
- Don't blog about specific people like this: "Ohh mi god i hate jenny shes such a cow but I love herbert, yeahh hes well nice, ohh but godd beth is such a bitch. die beth die." No one wants to no all of that without hearing something to do with what they've done at least.
More coming soon...
Not because I want people to know the truth about why I'm blogging this late, but because I have to get what I'm about to say out of my system and this is the only way to do it without hurting anyone.
First, if anyones looking at the time at the beginning of the blog and thinking "What the hell? Thats not late!" The clock on this blog is wrong. Does anyone know how to sort that?
The real time is 2.30am. I'm blogging this late for many reasons. Here they are...
- I can't sleep. I don't know whats wrong with me these days, I'm just not sleeping. I hate just lying awake, not doing anything so I have to do something instead. Thats why I blog late, I blog untill I'm tired.
- My life sucks. I know that sounds bad but I'm having loads of problems at the moment. I think I've told you about my ex-boyfriend problems? Yeah, well its really getting to me and I can't tell people because they'll just say something like "welll, you dumped him, you only have yourself to blame" FOR GODS SAKE! I don't fancy him anymore! Its just irritating that one second hes saying he loves me and I dump him for a week and hes onto the next girl telling her he loves her. I'm sorry but I hate players.
- This reasons gonna sound really bad, please read my reasons before you jump to conclutions about me. Well, my Gran's staying 'till wednesday. Mum's said I'm not alowed to go out tomorow and she and Dad are at work, so I'm home alone with Gran. I love my Gran, I really do, but I don't like spending days with her. Her theroy of a good time is sitting playing scrabble. I'm sorry but I'd rather be out with my friends. Is that normal? So yeah, I want to have a lie in so I don't have to play scrabble for long. I hope you don't hate me...Please say feeling like this is normal =D
So yeah, theres my reasons. If anyone's got any cures for any of them I would be enternally gratefull.
Just one more thing before I go...
I saw Stardust today!
It was awesome, its a really funny film. I defo recommend it. It worth twice the money!
Right now, I can't remeber a thing.
I may aswell be a fish. They only have a memory of 3 seconds don't they?
So now I'm sitting here feeling arquard because this is a totally pointless blog your reading. Some people write about politics or how there day has been, but oh no, I have to write about the fact I have nothing to write.
I HAVE NO LIFE.
I need to buy one despratly. Does ebay sell lives nowadays?
I bet as soon as I log off and go out I will remeber. Then I'll draw a little star on my hand to remind me. Then I'll get home and see the little star and think "I drew that star to remind me of something...What was it again?" Its a vicious circle.
COME ON BRAIN.
People are always like "The brain is better than any computer".
AT LEAST COMPUTERS REMEBER STUFF.
I think I need a brain transplant. Or a memory transplant. Or something. Do they do them in the UK? Probably not, I bet they do them in the US though.
I'm moving to the USA.
Omg, did I just say that?
Well, I'm sure you are all sick of me moaning about my own brain, so I'm off now.
Sunday, 21 October 2007
Saturday, 20 October 2007
- Close-minded people
- When people get tooo obsessed with things
- People who do stupid things for atention
- People who blame other people for there mistakes
- When my iPod takes ages to load on my speakers
- When you can't get comfy
- Writing essays about stupid things that you don't need to know
- when your arm hurts
- ugly betty
- people who go into your room and look through your stuff
- people who cry lots at stupid things
Friday, 19 October 2007
I haven't had a good day today so I'm not in the normal happy mood I'm generally in. This isn't just a mood though, I have pretty good reasons for my crappy mood.
First, I had my brace tightened the other day. For those of you who have had braces, you know what it feels like. For those who haven't its like have a toothache on every too on every single tooth in your mouth. It sucks.
The second reason is that I've been having a really crappy time with my ex-boyfriend recently. I dumped him and he wasn't happy with me so hes been doing his best to flirt with new girls in front of me. He also has a new girlfriend, even though we split up less than a week ago. I know I diched him, but its not nice to know he can move that quickly. He either never liked me, or he doesn't like the new girl. I dunno. I hate his guts either way.
I also had the worst lessons at college today. English, physics, ICT, physics (AGAIN!), and food theroy. That is what I call a crappy day. Double physics SUCKS. Plus in english were doing Shakespeare's Romeo & Juliet. For more information about how I feel about this play, look at my blog "Romeo & Juliet".
Thursday, 18 October 2007
Wednesday, 17 October 2007
Sorry I haven't blogged for a while, I've been busy. College is getting more and more stressful as the teachers are piling on the work. Also, I'm becoming more and more addicted to bebo, so whenever I do go on the internet, I tend to go on there. Also, I keep starting to write blogs, then getting distracted and going off to do something else. Now, you have my full atention to write a nice long blog for you guys.
I think the first topic I need to disgus is the rugby world cup. I am english, so thats probably the reason I want to write about it so badly! The finals on Saturday, England V South Africa. South Africa are TONS better than England at tris but England are a good team. Its gonna be one hell of a match =].
Now, as always, I have some complaining to do.
I have these 2 friends yeah, lets call them friend A and friend B. They are close, they both have the same intrests and wear the same clothes and stuff. The thing is, they can't acsept that anyone else wants to be anything diffrent than from what they want to be. They comlain about everything I do. If known one of them since I was 1 and its sad that I don't really like her anymore.
One more thing.
I HATE anime. With all my heart.
Sunday, 14 October 2007
I have to say, it was a pretty awesome film. Its defo worth the money. Its the sort of film that keeps you laughing, even when things arn't funny. The main reason I wanted to see it was because its directed by David Schwimmer (Ross from Friends) and I wanted to see if he was any good. I also like the main actor, but I can't remeber his name. I think they did a good job. Oh, and theres another reason, that other guy whos in it was also in Friends. He was phobes boyfriend before Mike.
Right now I'm at home, watching strictly come dancing with my mum.
I HAVE NO LIFE.
Well, its early but I'm going to bed. I'll watch Charlies Angels or something on DVD.
Saturday, 13 October 2007
Sorry I didn't blog yesterday. I was out all night. Then I came home and watched friends DVD's untill I fell asleep on the sofa. I woke up this morning with a headache and aching mucles. So I came on here, checked my bebo, downloaded a few songs, and then came on here to blog.
Omg guys guess what? I'm going to see Kanye West live! I really like Kanye West. I also downloaded some Gym Class Heroes and David Guetta. I really want that Version album by Mark Ronson. I downloaded the Valerie one and...Whats the other one? Oh yeah, Oh My God with Lily Allen.
I can't wait till the new Spice Girls single comes out. Are they doing an album? Or just that single? Awww man I hope there doing an album. I heart the Spice Girls.
Thursday, 11 October 2007
Firstly, a couple of months ago me and a few friends went to holland together, just for a day. We had a awesome day and before we left we all brought three lollys to have on the plain home...
It was all fine untill we started eating our lollys. My first friend didn't finish hers, she said it was making her feel sick. Me and my other friend did. Suddenly, we became increadably hyper. Honestly, it was the most hyper I've ever been. We were on the floor crawling around and hiding behind seats. Absoulty anything everyone did was so funny we were on the floor cracking up laughing. We could have honestly been on the clouds.
We just blamed our hyperness on the sugar.
Today, we were talking to our friends about it and they were all looking at us strangly. They were asking what these lollys looked like and we told them. Then they all cracked up laughing. They had seen those lollys on an other trip to holland and they had weed in them.
Thats why we were so hyper!!
I haven't told my mum. She wouldn't belive me anyway, she never belives me about this sort of thing, she just gives a sarcastic "haha who told you that? You should be more carefull about what you belive. Haha." Thats why I don't tell her stuff.
Wednesday, 10 October 2007
Yeah, I probably shouldn't blog as much as I do, but I get board! Well, my last blog "Emos" was pretty deep. I'm in a deep kinda mood today, and I'm not sure why...
I don't really have much to say. My day today was pretty boaring. I went to college, had maths (we were drawing all lesson so I enjoyed it), food techology which went alright because, well, I wasn't cooking, and then 1 1/2 hours of ICT. I didn't enjoy it as much becuase the person I normally chat to wasn't there, so I had to work all lesson. Then I went home becuase I only had a half day.
I went to my friends house for lunch, and to watch the midday version of neighbours and then her mum took me home. All in all it was a pretty normal day.
But I like normal, normal is good :].
I have to cook a "flaky pastry dish" in food on Tuesday. Why did I carry on with this subject?? I can't cook. I'm having to go to my friends house so she can teach me how to make it first. Well, teach me how not to blow up the kithen anyway.
Firstly, for all of you out there who don't know what "emo" is. Emo is a brand for humans I guess. Emo stands for emotional. They would be seen wearing black hair in there eyes and loads of black eyeliner. They also have the dendiacy to self-harm.
I used to be emo. I met this girl whos parents had died. She showed me the emo culture. At first I thought it was strage, the clothes and things these people did. She told me she was angry at the world for taking her parents. Everything that went wrong she would blame on the world, but take out on herself. The more I hung out with her, the more angry I became. Soon enough I was an emo.
Me and the girl would meet up, and complain about the world. Then we would take it out on ourselves. I guess I became too close to her. I was ither with her, texting her or on the phone or MSN to her. I liked her as a friend. Because we were both emo, and the only ones it kinda felt like use against the world. I never felt happy. I just wanted to curl up at home the whole time.
My other, happy friends became worried about me. They were telling me it wasn't good what I was doing to myself. I just thought they were against me. I used to fight through a day at school and get home just to talk to my emo friend. The only one who understood me.
This carried on for about a year. Then I realised. What was I doing to myself? What would happen if I carried on? I realised I'd become dependant on this girl and she had become dependant on me. Was this healthy? I knew for a fact she had tried to kill herself before. What if she had succeded? Would I do the same just to be with her?
I was sick of feeling bad about myself the whole time. I wanted to have a laugh with my friends again. I found spoke to one of my friends that I really trusted and asked her what to do. She helped me stop taking my worries out on myself. After I'd got over that the rest was easy. I began talking to my old friends. I'd forgoted how hard I used to laugh with them. Me and the girl started to drift apart. I felt bad losing her. I'd told her stuff that I wouldn't dream of telling other people. Plus, its always hard losing a friend.
I only got sucked in for a year. How come everyones still emo? I couldn't stand being depressed the whole time. I love my friends because there happy, and always up for a laugh.
Be happy guys :]
Tuesday, 9 October 2007
Pretty cool huh??
Lmao, yeah, I found out that if I acctully TRY in maths it tends to go faster. That and making up tourture methods for the annoying girl sitting next to me.
Did my speach in science. It went pretty well.
So all good really.
I only have half a day tomorow =]
I can watch the midday version of neighbours haha.
Anyway, I have to go
Sunday, 7 October 2007
Sorry I haven't blogged this weekend. I've been busy the whole time. I dunno what doing really, time goes by so quickly at weekends.
Nah, I went on a huge DVD shopping spree. I brought like 10 movies and 3 serise of Friends. I've spent my whole weekend watching them in my room on my laptop.
Ahhh...Friends always cheers me up.
You know my blog "confused" I wrote a couple of days ago? Yeah, well since then I've been pretty down so I decided to cheer myself up.
So I thought to myself "OK, what aways cheers me up?" Well DUURRR. A double episode of Friends on E4 of course! So I took the bus to town and raded the DVD store. Then I came home and watched Friends to my hearts content :].
Ahh so now I'm happy. I'm acctully watching Friends at this very moment. Monicas complaining because she looks like a man. Lmao that makes me laugh.
Yeah so e...OMG WHO'S THAT??? Ok guys, this woman just walked in and I know her from somewhere. Oh crap who the hell is that. Ok guys, if you watch this watch the episode of Friends called "The one with the memorial service." When Ross is holding his own memorial service and the girl turns up. Yeah, who is she?? Omg, if anyone knows PLEEASSSEE tell me.
Honestly, I would LOVE you if you knew. Ok the first one that gets it gets....ermm...a mention on my blogs?? Yeah, thats a good one. Haha. No, you can have something though? Free advertizing. I dunno. JUST TELL ME. Lmao.
Thursday, 4 October 2007
My sites getting better and better by the second. Click http://www.freewebs.com/hearthatsound to visit it.
Just wanted to say thanks to feng-shui who signed my blog "confused". I spoke to my family, they really helped, thankyou x.
Okay, I don't have much power left in my laptop so this is gonna have to be quick.
What do you guys think about bitching? All girls bitch. I think its in our DNA, but is it right? I don't think its too bad. If you've got something you really need to get off your chest I think its fine to bitch to close friends about it. I bitch. Everyone does. What I don't think is right is constant bitching. I mean, theres this girl I know and I really don't like her. She would be really nice if she didn't bitch the WHOLE time. In lessons, at breaks, at weekends, in the evenings, honestly. And no-ones out of her fireing line. She bitches about anyone and everyone.
Personally, I don't think thats right.
And, do boys bitch? Or is our bitching the same as them beating each other up? I dunno, anyway, let me know what you think. Do you bitch? Do all girls bitch? Is bitching right?
Let me know.
I'm off now. My laptops flashing threatening messages at me and I'm getting scared.
Tuesday, 2 October 2007
The spice girls are back together! How immecly cool is this? OMG I'm so excited.
SOMEONE GET ME TICKETS!
All my familys like "ooo you don't want to go see them."
LIKE HELL I DON'T.
Omigosh how cool would it be to see them live. I've seen them live before, I was at the concert when they annonced they were splitting up. I was so sad. I cryed for ages. They were like the first band I EVER liked (along with S Club 7).
I had all there CD's. Yep, all 5. Shows what a true fan I am does it not?
So, if your reading this baby, scary, sporty, posh or ginger (man I hope I've rembered them all.)
Please please please please PLEASE send me tickets. I loovveee youuu.
Monday, 1 October 2007
I don't mean that in a good way.
I'm so confused, I won't go into details, but I'm having some problems. I've spoken to on of my friends about at and shes told me what I should do but I'm not so cure.
Ohh I feel so bad.
Ok lets talk positive.
Ohh god I can't think positive. I don't know what to do, I feel sick I'm so confused.
I wish I could forget about it. I guess blogging about it won't help. I should really talk to the people involved. I can't though. I feel sick. Someone tell me what to do.
I have to go. Hopefully I'll feel better by tomorrow.